alone-art-beautiful-black-and-white-calm-figure-favim-com-40265I’ve forgotten everything about you
The way you always tilt your head
When something makes you wonder
How you finger comb your hair
And it cascades around your face
The way your nose wrinkles
When I’ve confused you again
How you drive with your left hand
While your right taps on the dash
And I want to still it with a kiss

I’ve forgotten why we said goodbye
All the fragmentary arguments
The slammed doors in the hall
Silence that stretched into forever
And the dissonance that stung
Like pine needles in a strong wind
How I shut down instead of sharing
All this pain wrapped up inside of me
And you disappeared into the fog
Of life, and loss, and misunderstanding

I’ve forgotten the reasons to stay
Your silhouette in the pouring rain
The feeling of your hand in mine
Fingers linked together like our bodies
Under the covers in the dead of night
How we could converse about nothing
And everything at the very same time
This opalescent, divergent love
All-consuming in its consequential rage
That burns out, leaving only our ashes

I’ve forgotten everything about you
The complacent nature of your understanding
That we would always be good for each other
When we were toxic from the very beginning
Despite the moments of pure elation
I don’t remember feeling utterly worthless
Or shackled to the idea of who we should be
Instead of the reality of who we were not
And the devastation is more evident now
Because I’ve forgotten the memory of you

And I’m ready to move on.

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