Barely Breathing

KirillSakrukinI almost lost myself
When the darkness sunk in
Like Mississippi mud
Blackening my sky
When it had gotten light
And these footprints deep
Entrenched in love
But still forgotten
Because this is fear
Quivering in the night
Dull like a knife
Next to a whetstone
I see it from a distance
This conscious need
An affinity for sin
Getting lost in a sigh
While barely breathing
Waiting for the rain
To show me the way
Or leave me dry.